I’ve been holding onto a secret for 36 years. 

And until recently, I didn’t even realize I was doing it. 

In fact, it was so unintentional and so unconscious, that it took a radical wake-up call from God himself, for me to get honest about two things: 

1. That it was time to reveal my truest self, and two

2. Unless and until I do, the people who are on a similar path will not be able to find me, partner with me, or bring the projects to life that are in alignment with our life’s soul journey.

You have to imagine when this realization came over me it was a tough pill to swallow. Especially when I realized that I’ve been keeping myself a secret.

If you’ve followed my story, then you know I’ve experienced a lot of downs in my life, especially in the past few years. Homelessness, health concerns, financial instability, divorce, single-parenthood, and job loss were just some of the surface-level issues I had to deal with. But after tackling those things, I realized very quickly, that those things were just the tip of the work. I still needed to do more to carve a safe space for myself in the universe. And in order for me to do that, I allowed myself to disappear so I could heal and come back better.

I allowed myself to disappear so I could heal and come back better.

Since I’ve been gone, I’ve learned a few things.

I learned to accept that there was a time in my life when I struggled with self-love, and my underdeveloped sense of confidence caused me to self-destruct, remain silent, and self-abandon at the first signs of conflict. It allowed me to see clearly that I was angry, depressed, and codependent to poor eating and drinking habits. Lost in my own lack of self-understanding, I stayed in toxic situations and toxic relationships that didn’t serve me. The misalignment kept me in situations that constantly kept me at arm's length from the life I wanted because I wasn’t willing to admit that I had agency. Whether by ignorance or my fixed mindset, I was living under the illusion that there was very little I could do to change my circumstances and shift the trajectory of my life. 

Unfortunately, the hard truth is that these limiting beliefs continuously manifested cycles of financial instability, discord, and poor health throughout my 20’s & early 30’s. And it wasn’t until I received a Preeclampsia diagnosis and faced a near-death, Code-Blue eclamptic crisis a few days after the birth of my third child - that things started to come to a head. 

I didn’t know it then, but this upheaval would serve as a catalyst to the complete breakdown and subsequent rebuilding of my life. It started with the transformation of my physical, emotional and mental health. It continued with the overhaul of my financial habits. And it expanded as I shed once-valuable relationships and friendships, in exchange for people who were in alignment with my deepest calling.

This period of time in my life, which I now affectionately call my Awakening, not only lead me on a journey to transform and reframe every facet of myself, but it also made my mission, to provide a level of support to women who are on similar paths of restoration, far more clear.

Once I started to work on myself I eventually developed the skillsets that allowed me to show up for myself, to become my own best ally.

Sometime around August 2021, I made the radical decision to close the last chapter of my life. I set an intention to focus on the freshness of my future. I forgave anyone and everything in the past so that I could give myself a clean slate. And due to my actions, I now have a new perspective and a new tribe. I’m writing to you today to let you know why my content channels must change at this point. It’s time for me to be more authentic about where I’ve been and what I’ve overcome. It’s time to pursue a new life, and chase a new dream.

That self-limited, self-abandoned, version of me needed to die. It was necessary, so a new healthy, authentic, honest, self-loving version of me could emerge.

Who knew, it would take so much loss to gain, but I guess that’s the joy of growth - knowing that before you get to go forward sometimes God takes you back, so you can see what you’ve lost, where you lost it, and how to build bedrock out of it all. 

Who knew, it would take so much loss to gain, but I guess that’s the joy of growth - knowing that before you get to go forward sometimes God takes you back, so you can see what you’ve lost, where you lost it, and how to build bedrock out of it all. 

That said, coming into the new year, I wanted to reintroduce myself as the stripped-down version of Adonica that has been years in the making. 

So what does that mean exactly?

It means my content and work will focus on areas where I’ve had experiences. No more of the cookie-cutter bullshit that has done nothing but prevent me from getting and giving support from others. 

It’s time to get real. 

It’s time to get honest, and it’s time for me to lead, based on who I am, and what I know now. No more hiding. Just me, you, and the truth. 

No more hiding. Just me, you, and the truth. 

So we’re about to get really honest about women’s health,  maternal health, and women’s mental health, and how when it fails, the inevitable cost that befalls a woman and her family can become insurmountable without the right help. 

We’re going to get down to the nitty-gritty about our self-limiting beliefs, self-destructing behaviors, stigmas ( and why we let them hold us back from help), addiction, and generational habits. We are going to examine where they started, why, and what it really takes to shift them.

And lastly, faith and spirituality. I believe each of us has been confronted by something that has rattled our beliefs. We’ve all had something that has made us question whether we were on the right path, on the right path with the right people, and on the right path with the right people at the right time. We’re going to dig deep to work through these things. 

In 2022, my projects will create an ecosystem that supports education and support for women about the health of the body, the health of the mind, and the health of the spirit.

In 2022, my content, businesses, and projects will create an ecosystem that supports education and support for women about the health of the body, the health of the mind, and the health of the spirit.

If you haven’t heard of my company Wingwomen, today is the day I want you to check it out. This platform provides access to women who want to find peer support around their physical and mental health. My goal was to create a digital space for women to explore questions and concerns around their health and give them a network where they can work through the answers, find peer support and connect with healthcare professionals to provide answers to their questions.

Although I’m not a big believer in coincidence, I am someone who believes that things happen for a reason at the right time.

So if you’ve found yourself here, there’s a reason.

And if you stick around long enough, I’m sure you’ll figure it out why.